raGe crEepiNg undeR my derMis

havent blogGed iN a whiLe ledi thouGh i do keep track what i do in my litTle ovum-isH ikea bOok. bEen agitated and iRritated siNce begInning oF weEk and foUnd no reason(s) to upDaTe 'cept feeliNg mads,which may lead on (unconsciouslY) to soundiing whiny and complain-y,which is sth i do not like abt myselF

had the car to myselF alMost tHe whOle day ,with mum as passenger,(aGaiN!??) :S
(poOr) leftiE ear suFfers tHe most tHe wHoleday,witH mum yelling *gently* into my leftie ear at most turnings and stops making me jolt from seat,trying hard to remain composed relaxed and nonchalant lols

surrendered the car to her after dropPing sis at goays as we left from there onwards foR sg buloH. got lost the 1st round,then rained heavily liKe the first tiMe then it stoPped abruptly theN starts all OVER AGAIN and then made a wrong turnIng again till we got every turning rite (and even figured a new route!! whoopeee!!!) not bad for a 45 minute drive (inclusive of redtrafficlights waits)

torN up my fav project (foundation final project, a childhood windchime) in shReds just now whiLe i was raging. (which i regretted tHe secoNd i did) ,only to realise the damage which cant be undone and sat there for quite a whiLe breaking into a meDdley of short sobs crying over some broken doll like a 4year-old.

got so frus for being ordered to *re - assemble * the attic, wants my works *CLEARED* !!! i got the unnecessary things out and thrown and the usables intact and here they come yammering... * i doN wanna see ur things lyiNg around in the store*!!

then what is the store lying on the attic foR?

foR mice to have theiR latenight parties friskiNg around?

and what!! u want me to CLEAR my works.. which i interprete as *get theM packed and prepared to end in the biN* !!!!!!!!!!!!

disH! it feels like crying rite away!!!!

like they don wanna see a trace of me lying in the attic, which isnt someplace they get by everyday ..so why bother.

sobs

its my first time venting my rage (behind closed doors) in months. noeing if u are heard or seen being emotional makes u feel a whole lot more vulnerable to ppl who mean to see and enjoy what they see because of things humans do but i haVe not a slightest idea why!

enough heat foR today, outdoors indoors,in the unventilated attic, in the car! wants a good rest today and cant wait to see the sunshining tomorrows!

wish me lucK for my fiRstday @woRk!

reCalling ....

:: things to do ::
send gc the yogurt recipe _promised her since last year whoops
pass a letter to college _but no car today : soBs
collect notebook from dee and return her cds _like moulin rouge best

and many tHaNks to gc for doiNg me a huge favor sending the fax foR me,at her risK!

:: things that could have happened ::
finishing the final presentation today
free of tHe strEss and whatsoevers u face in final year
planning foR some vacation/hol with friends probably
happy to have completed final year,the haRd work that pays oFf that puts a smiLe on ur face even when u are sleeping

shuyii.©2005

tWeaks_-_

send babysister to dad's oFfice to have her 3 documents printed as my printer is reluctant to print colour prints.i guess the setting needs twEaking ....but before we got to step in my dad's oFfice, sth happened...

i would say it's terrifying as thIs is my first tiMe encountering such of a situation, and too flabbergasted to noe what to do/how to react

loOkiNg foR a parkiNg just across the road wheRe my dad's office is located when i found one near the cornering of the road where i came from.made a sharp turning to get the head of the car aligned to the bay and guess what.. thiNk i must have lOOk so much to my right so i wouldn't scratch the car next to mine,i got carried away forward till the car went MASUK into THE loNgkaNg!!!!! (okays,well i may be exaggerating but the left WHOLE tyre REALLy was in the drain ledi) >.

and witH the caR slanted sideways to the left it was pretty hard for me on the right to push the door open to come out. fortunately there weRe two guys who caMe by to help the helpless and damsel-in-distress me and lifted it out of the drain while i really rammed into the reverse gear lol. thaNks to the two misters for the lending a hand! pHews!

visited a family fren in hospital this eveniNg, happened to have undergone an operation the same week my dad did, 'cept he's still lying in bed, pretty motionless except for flickers of eye movement and weak from meds/painkillers. he'd look really well if it hadn't for the tubes goin in and out of him, not a sallow/yallow complexion definitely.

theRe is anotHeR friend of my mum's whose husband too went to seek medication for his illness. how coiNcidental for all this to happen in a week, and how worrying.... sighs

did some tweaking witH my blogtemplate :) got title ledies, i aM happy foR now!! :) grins

NO to s.O.d - yes to buBble tea

yays! dad able to check out today. he looks and feels better today,and was able to eat breakfast w/out throwing up. he had bread before that and he didnt throw up either. i had caramel candy for bfast and a glasS of milk. was jumping with glee when i spotted that candy lying on the shelf in the shop aNd it is a whole 60cents moRe expensive than the one i bought twodays ago

the doc came in later in tHe mornIng and showed us some real images of the extracted stone! ohMy yuCksies >.< dad has to come for a second blood test to make sure eveRything's fine

left the hosp. stanking like the smells that clung onto the hosp air,( arghhs it has gotten ONTO me!!!!) jumps thuMps jumps stoMp StoMp >,<

first thing i did was : : : -->>>

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jump into the shower to get rid of that sick clingy smell
feels fresh now! :) big smilies

had luNCh with kwooi, susan wats and debbs at McD's near centrepoint approx 2. lunches till 4, left witH debbs to the Curve to collect my ring. fits perfectly now and looks a whole lot smaller than it used to - hMmphs

ends up shopping in Ikea where debbs got a pair of fly swatters!!! :P hahaha stH to swat thoSe annoying peeps witH!!! swat pliaKs pLiaks *deads* oops! (sorrys sis!) did that hurt?? :P

went to pasarmalam after dinner. it was a warm nite witH the moon was shining from the pitch black sky enveloped in its mysterious-ness veil. i seriously think it LOOks like a fishball sunken at the bottom of a bowl of kueyteow soup but my sis [meng] just laughed at my remark. guess she cant see the similarities between food and astronomy. why... ... neither can i :P lol

went to yumcha at a shop near the balai polis called the S.o.D - Source of Delight...don go there urself unless u pretended u dint read this, price cuts neck and the portions are so tiny enough to feed a sorta Callista Flockhart fr (ally McBeal if u cant remember). sighs [hears meng rambling away how nasty the food is,how unworthy the price etcetera etcetera- she just won sTOP!!!!]

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why.. it got so infectious i decide to join her in her rantings - lol

leaving phengz to ravish whatever's left -_-" LOL!

wanted to get a dozen of pinkroses just now but they look so wilty

that doinks of a caleb sounding like his not his very own-self in msn a while ago.something must have gotten him while he was in the waters of batu ferringhi during his vacation- some water spirit-lah or sth i suppose

*scratches head* he mentioned gal who could melt his heart....

or............maybe its just the full moon [lol!]
and silly thiNgs ppl say when the moOn is round

uNfamiliaR sceNt - waNts me_coMfy bed

toDay is one warM morniNg when the rays shiNe from the eastwards floodiNg light onto tHe glossy parquet flooring,causing soMe fragMents of light to bounce oFf and cast upon every wall/ceiling surface possible! somE purpose of a curtain indeed! my rooM looKing liKe kaleidoscope of tiny flecky lights. bright morniNg for a start,but doesnt proMise a bright beginniNg.not too expectant of that... yet

not too expectant of light streaming in the bathroom, which is some rare occurence! maybe this is a sign or sth. this part of the house has oways been on the darker side for the houses behind weRe tall enough to block most rays fr entering.

i toOk a while in the shower pondering and watching tHe rays teasing the droplets that poured from the shower head. during some moments,u could almost see a faint rainbow(or shower*bow? :P) waltzing and dancing to the rhythm of the light,responding to its flirtation probably!

was probably too entranced looking at the ickle rainbow i came out of the bath mist-kissed with the hotwater running the whole time and thE bathrooM totally matted by mistvapours!

simulated in *psd - its almost impossible tRying to catch that on cam,if u noe what i mean , lol ;P

weSak day this year is very unlike to those whiCh weRe celebrated in the past. well, thIs yeaR without dad around that is. our whole family will normally go to the temple in the morning for prayers and have vegetarian brunch thereafter. but here i am sitiing in the living room thinking as i finger the thin yellow strand of thread praying silently for dad who is getting pRepared getting wheeled into the operation hall any moment now. *soBs*

sinking slowly into my miserable thoughts :'(

*assigned* to remain hoMe instead of goin to the hosp. have to fetch my Reluctant sis to tuition at Yee's. deCided to droP by at dee's to see what i could help out witH sinCe its the final day they could work on theiR layout. called her, texted her, tried calling again, still no answer so decide to call franco iNstead,no rep too! grrrrrrrs wheRe on eartH all the centerpoint occupants gone to???? called annie and an answer after 4 rings! guess i will go over while waiting foR dee's reply......

buMped into franco whiLe collectiNg student pass. so went up to fix a statement* he needed help witH, but after mucH tweakiNg ere and there it still wasnt indepth/concise enough. will come up witH somethINg better and will post it to hiM if i see hiM in msn again!

left for hidee's to find annie there too, within one and a half hrs, i;d only manage to finish constructiNg oNe gallery lighting fixture! hard to get the cylindrical hollowed out and a strip along it removed to house the incandescent tube! and i din have time to insert the tuBe!!! arghhs!

finished anotHeR tube of ChoCful, courtesy of dee's roomie: * First Love* (that was how they introduced her and find it amusing as a name so neglected her realname forgotten ledies) :P left dee's at 2-25 prompt, found my way to Yee's 10 mins late greeted by a sourish expression on sis's face waiting by the shoplots witH other hopefuls waiting for their transportation, lol

reacHed at dad's rooM to find hiM different only in patient's robes with his yallowing tint slowly dissappearing yet still apparent esp on eyeballs and his palms. well better yallow than getting any sallow-er. the jaundiced appearance is due to the overflowing of the bile duct which was blocked by gall stone. prior to that successful operation it will take matter of days for the liquids to be fully discharged from the system,cant expect an immediate recovery and that was just a step to stop the pain. leaving us to worry about another problem. gallbladder stones in the gall.

the rest left approx. ard 8 when the F1 was just starting. i couldnt help but feel awkward that i will b left alone here, just me and my dad.we talked about the operation and the meds and we watched a lil of F1 till he drifted off to sleep before 10.

i watched tru calling on a hospital bed(w/out SIS!!! arGhhs) sitting cross legged feeling lethargic and sore yet i cant close my eyes when i tried to. another reason was the nurses kept hustling bustling in each everyhour injecting meds changing the drips attaching a mechanism, take pressure, detach again. ((???)) -_-" am not a light sleeper usually but guess this is what happens when u arent sleeping in ur own home.

woke up few times to refill dad's glass, change room temperature but i don remember anything apart from that,was walking around zombie_style

not to mention feeling like sleeping on a buRnt loaf of really age old bread! feels like stone beneath ur body

*dish*!!!!!! -_-"

(silly) Me! - no moRe soDas with/w/out sis's suPeRviSion, lol

*crafted out of DoodleIMvironment*

interview at d'sara peRdana went well, will be summoned for a 2nd interview on wednesday (why the fuss actually?) i sNagged sth fr 7-11 after my interview and left it in the icebox to chill before drinking it just now. anyway this was roughly what happened ... :P

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[11:53:10 PM] BaBy biSh: u drank alcohol ar
[11:53:23 PM]BaBy biSh: stupid kangkung.... why u drink so much
[11:53:36 PM] *s h u y i i: its just a SODA
[11:53:40 PM] *s h u y i i: 5 %
[11:53:52 PM] BaBy biSh: hahha
[11:53:54 PM] BaBy biSh: stupid
[11:54:09 PM] *s h u y i i: but feel so....?
[11:54:11 PM] *s h u y i i: highs ledi
[11:54:14 PM] BaBy biSh: ur drunk and u still able to make ur way online
[11:54:16 PM] BaBy biSh: hahha

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seriously i don't think i will be able to find my way online if i'd disconnect just now, i could just plopped on bed and wake up starry-eyed tomorrows.

i feel so woozy and whatever it is throbbing against my head now, it really drives me crazy! and my 14 year old sis (god foRbid) finish the other 150ml and she'd look like herself any otherday where else i aM here all red-eared and feeling..esp....... warm... hmmms

time to get back to my comfy sanctuary

zZZzzzZ.s

of miCrobes aNd miNisculaR jellys

9:20 am

*emBraces a new mornINg with a hug* theRefore the early entry :)

umms..

i really like this iCkle lobster of a monster

saw this when i was searching for images of microscopic creatures of the sea last night (or rather morning, it was almost 2 ) helping out my sister to Visualise how these intriguing creatures look like making their own twinkling light in the deep darkness of the sea. she has an art test entitled *something thats gotta go with laut dalam and the hidupan yang pelik pelik that resides the depths of the sea- laH or sth* guess she can conjure a shuyii lookalike 12 legged blinking mollusc/invertebrate/seashell adorned clung onto some anemone/coralbed looking organism - considering myself pelikpelik at times - lols

this little guy appeared in gettyimages.com under my search *keyword * microorganism*

guess he's ickle alright,though he looks nastily human-scaled in this angle

but that doesn't make him aNy less meanEr! :P

i woke up with cold feet (it must be my bro's aircond seeping from under the door)

and my sis woke up with a shock!

^^ cursing * damn! why the alarm clock did not go off today!! it was suppose to wake me up at 8 : 30 am today, DaMn DaMn euRGhhhhshs!!!

funny how art practical makes her a total different from me. i would have slept till noon those times if my mum let me, haha

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.... AND a piccy of aN auROra BoRealis froM a weather statioN in nORway! i wanna fly there!!!!!!

yet aNotheR loNg day

have u miss someone so terribly?
Message:

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.

Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him, missing the final episode of your favourite show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u were out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.

When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.

It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.

U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.

But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.

At the same time, ask if they miss u. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoia.

If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. If u miss him/her too, tell them.

Don't let them wait.


* misses someone dearly now* sighs


5-50 pm

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i'd die of exhaustion oNe day, just attending interviews and being talked to for 2 whole gruelling hours, by 3 different people, one at a time

the *oneDay* is bound to come, when i have made up my decision. two more this week and i aM done i am afraid so, enough of interviews and my quest for an ideal location salary working environment blah ness.

today's interior firm is located on the outskirts in sg. buloh amidst the botanical farms, hardware shops, factories and pig-rearing farm.(gosh?! and u were talking about LOCATION?!) don't like the air there, feels like u are sucking in a few gallons of dust with every breath u take. shud have seen the number of truck/lorry drivers urself. zoom in and out up and down left and right .EVERYWHERE!

although it was a horrendous experience trying to locate that place (due to miscommunication of the information of the map froM the website) and that thuNderiNG rain which obscured many of a signposts and slowed down the search! but i am quite likely to work there, (huhss??) although i hate the location, and peeps there smoke ( for i didnt realise it till i got in the car and got to smell how different i smelled before and after i got it) small working area, late OTs sighs

the employer (a young man in late 20s) was kind enough to lead me a shorter way to getting there, upon knowing where i stay. he seemed like a friendly chap and talks like lungseng in a way. oR maybe the pCk. way that is, (minus the yalO bOots and HUge mole) hahas

this company coveRs a great many areas that i will gladly gain experience and exposure from. they do retail, commercial, exhibition, temporary/permanent display exhibitions kiosks. impResSes me how a 6-sTaFf,3 partners team can manage multiple projects at a time! i shud really think about it. chester(the employer) says i could give him a call anytime after i have decided but

.........zzzz

tired liaos

2nd saturday of everymonth off

very comforting

*plonks into my comfort-box of baby bleusoft eiderdowns * zzzzzs

sHNaps, had fuN beiNg craBby toDay

- found this iCkle* crabby in gettyimages.com yesteRday! thInk its qute ;>-

feEling woozy foR today for i slept through a *bFast i pRomised sis* but soMehow she slept throUgh it too till i woKe her up at 10 lols.-gaHahas! explains why we are rooMmates for once, for i cant find anything we have in coMmon really, 'cept for liking to sleep so much ( lately)

was loOking throUgh my bLog entRies wheN i realised this skin was diFferent froM the prev because it comes w/out a title foR each entRy!- (c e l a k a!-) most blogskins come without title headings for entries, might wanna loOk up at ori templates to check the htmls and such. did asked just* about html coding and stuff but she wasnt very clear herself, i really need help with the frame, i think its useless of a layout to just occupy half of an entiRe page - darn. its stark naked on both sides and nevertheless i aM sick of the endless scrolling.

after lunch time...

....... 2 pm..... 3 pm...........

and i aM back! finally the newspapers are home! :) was waiting for it since morning cos dad tOok it with hiM (every morning) when he breakfasted with mum. so finally it's home and he's still reading it in the hall!? hasn't he got all morning i wonder...

.. well anyway, a few ads which repeated from yesterday's and the day before's nothiNg much. didnt make any phonecalls today but an interview due on monday lunchtime in Kepong ( like.. AGAIN?!) funny to oBserve that 2 out 3 interviews i attend are in kepoNg, esp bandar manjalara area! talented ppl like wb STAYs and WORKs in kepong i guess....lols. gonna clash with my appointment with the hairdresser, have to re-sche tht. *sighs and the earliest will be next weEek! how can it wait any longer!? it has been wanting a trIm siNce early thisyear but its getting longer and i kinda like the length but hair never stays that length for eveR so have to get the splitted broken ends snIpPed oFf befOre the endS split rigght up to the roots ( imagining a frizz afro)

now with nothiNg muCh to do except make phonecalls, receive phonecalls and goin online to do some research i still get zits springing out of nowhere : S i mean it isnt very stressful time is it? must be the lack of water intake lately hmmms...spoke to gc (she's a graphic designer btw) just now, abt html coding and stuFf for i was trying to figure how to change the size of my miniscule frame but she said she'd left all her knowledge of html with her lecturer when she'd left col!! how funny!

aanyway recalling the job i had previously i kinda missed those times when i was working in ken damansara (with my one and only collegue) yea its depressing and i wasnt exactly in my ups but it was great knowing my two seniors: sheng and gc! (one from another building!) me and sheng ( my collegue) we in tower 6, 12th floor if i aren;t mistake and she must be atleast 2 / 3 towers away but gc is a fren of sheng's since highschool days so at 12 sharp every noon we'll meet downstairs to meet foR luncH! ;> they are both olderthan me by a couple of years but there weRe no coMmunication prObleMs between us as we laugh and talk about everythiNg possible :) there were the tWo who'd realy kept me working there for as long as i did ( like one and a hlf months..?? lol) though it was pretty short of a time to get to know these 2 young ladies better but they helped me a great deal and i had to thank luncH for the oPportunity to meet me witH these two insaniacs lol! maDe me laugh pretty much the whole lunchtime till chokiNg and coughing* working is much less of a burden and a bore with theM :) thaNks foR being my fren sheng and gc ( if u are reading this)*** :) * hugs*

had dinneR at one.u in italliannis - shriMp agaiN :) this was the same pasta we OrdeRed on eve oF xMas eVe shoPpiNg for xMas pRessie foR famIly and freNs.gosh that was almost a whole 6 months ago! -briNgs baCk the meMoRies- was walkiNg ard in eneos coming to the botanicals section, loOkiNg foR a babY's breatH close siBlIng((???) pics below but couldnt find any! shud have gotten it when i came witH hiDee the otheR tiMe...geEz

its ruNniNg late now,and i aM off to read oR snOoze off witH bOOk on (my face)! have a great weekend peeps!

have sth foR delicate dainty loOkiNg thiNgies

all pics sourCed froM gettyimages.com ( they have awesome macros btw!)

freSh staRt, tiRed eVeniNg -

could hardly get my baCk up straightaway up from bed this mornIng. tiMe reads 8-15 am. i really shud be up by now or i will be ruNning late and i will better be prepared foR bedtime sNorRies in the caR in the morning. had breakfastt in 103 with mum and dad. with all the butterflies fluttering i could hardly even swallow my simple breakfast of a Pau. *gulp. well washes the dry consistency of dough and red bean paste with swig of iced-milo *that feels better but i;d rather a plain glass of water or tea instead :P *regrets

trying to find this 5/62A proved to be a dificult task. the road numbers are all over the place. u are greeted with a 3/62A and then in the next road its a 11/62 or sth (???) the numbers are way apart from each other and don seem to see any relation between 3 and 11 except a few numbers missing in between but wheRE are they?! goSh and no *ENTRY* sign almost every junction.

uNbelieVable!!!! did a fEw moRe missed tuRns, rounds, wrong turns again, squinting to see road signs and signages not ever oN EVERY road. giving dad a rather bad first impression ledi could see him sighing and shaking his head while mum argues which road we shud turn in at etc. not a good company sighsmyself*

found the place! but unsightly deserted run-down shoplots, peeling paint, more lorry drivers, workshops, hardware shop or soldering (i duNno??) but certainly not a place where aN interior firM shud be in! sees that expression on dad;s face again when he says " here we are" lol

i got down fr the car *takes in a DEEp breath* and set of walking across the road. *surely this is not goin to look as bad as it seemed! oh pls God * fingers crossed u noe, it was certainly not so bad! a narrow stairway leading up to 1st floor and greeted by hung-up piece of abstract art(looks like an oil or acrylic to me)witH tasteful(huH?) spotlighting (haha!)

does give me an impression of an art studio because the colour scheme is so siMple : : subtle greys, naked concrete, steel finishEs, more stained concrete, brick blocks, mini skylights! ( oooOo) altogeTheR a very zen-lOok as hidee would put it. i like the simple concrete walls and its grey slate flooRiNg. dooRs are sliding ones witH cute font mesages printed and stick-ed onto glass, dark wood finishing though i cant tell which variant exactly but my insecurities have subsided for that moment, doesnt loOk so bad.

the only thing to worry is when i get summoned in foR interview. at this moment still filling up the job applicant form. handwriting sure gives a certain amount of an impression *Okays then* shall write in my best handwriting possibly i can manage today, lol academic/qualifications. many stRiked-outs here for am experiencing mental block from being overly nervous. cant seem to remember whats to be put down in that blank * shits *

they seeMed iMpresSed witH my 3 d perspectiVes but offeRing only 900. not bad foR a first interview i guess :) got hoMe appROx 11 am graBbed some lunCh and got ready foR my 2nd interview at 3 in d'sara perdaNa.

why... i think if i start worK ere i will start developing hallucinations talking to a conjured up imaginary fren suffer from depression, then illnesses...cos it REALLY reminds me of my prev. workplace!!!!!!! worKiNg aLONE!!!!

i like being left alone but not stretcHed to matter of hours trying to figure something on my OWn!

strike out this option from my list!!!

Good EveNinG Bangkok: thaNks foR the trips to tHe loo!

woKeN up by aN sMs fr wats at 9 am. don feel like waking up. i just gave it a quick readthrough and muttered *yea i woken up ledi,(by uR SMS) but i don wanna feel like waking up so i continued zzz. moments later the hp RaNG agaiN! arGHh debbs this tiMe! wondeR why the earLy morNing call! so i answeRed tHe phOne,trying to put oN my Most-wokeN-up voice (haha!) wants to bring the meetiing foR luNch earLieR, like ard 11-30 arHH!~

wats did not reallyarrIved till 11-27 which is a mere 3 mins from the tiMe we have prOmisEd to meet~! d-arN! we arrived a whole 10 mins later i guess. which is no a biggie la cos its still a loNg way to the movie! (okie. maybe punctuality eh no-no) had lunCh at Good eVeniNg Bangkok,1 appetiser,1 soup,2main course,1 dessert(debb's oRder!)food tHeRe is oWite but i guEss We WeRe payiNg foR the aMbieNce la (bunCh kiddoS squealing iN thE bacKgrouNd?! :P)

went shopPinG foR deBbs's earriNgs afteR that,she'd fouNd a cute hoops one witH emBedded diaMantes in flowEr-chain desigN! how aBsolutely cute! :) its 1- 27 wheN we caMe out of shop and only reaaLised movie's at 1- 25! arghHHh! thaNk god we'd just reach on tiMe wHeN it staRteD! :) hitCh turNs out to Be a pretty hilarious movie :) witH eNdiNgs that souNds like nIce-ness lols :) desperate starting witH a happy fruitful endinG, some movie for some guy who cant stand still wobbling like jellyinfront of the gal he fancies, lols! its cute watchiNg allegra falling foR cluMsy albert, and (yes it DOES happens in real liFe) i dunNo u call it charMinG or endeaRing but this explains why u don OWAYS fall foR the cutest of guys - gaH! iroNic

movie ends almost nearing 4 so we walked ard a bit hoPING to buMp into my IdeaL proM dreSS, enD up buMpiNg in2 ail,dee,shaMmy & booN! hah small worLd inDeed! pRoCeeded to starbuCks foR hot chOccie, (w/out deB and laurie) costhey have prOCeedEd hoMe, Nice weaTheR foR hot cHoCcie altogetHeR!~ :) its pouriNg drizzles outside while i aM sippInG on hot chOCcie ( remInds me oF the nIceness of feeliNg cocoONiZed thoUGh the heat nOw traVels insiDe out!* wiNKS ) comiNg to starBucKs will meaN i will oways go foR the cho-based driNks cos... i liKe chOCcie-tastiNg thINgs-LA~! haha it will be hot choccie, pure choccie or the furthest extent i will go will Be the rhUMba cappucino (thats cos it has swirLs of choc bits in it!! ) i haVe yet to trY the white_choccie bleNded (which i will in mY next visit, just chuck it in mY list of mental notes )

left approX 5 pM! loNg-lonG day iN One u,but have yet to fiNd a suitaBle dress (due to my piCk-isH *iMpeCcable tasTe?? * oR my duMPlINg-ed state?) sighz. its still slightly moist wheN we aRe out of The paRkiNg baY but nonetheless owwedy stopped pouriNg! :) i like the wetness in the air, the smell of rain-washed everythings. and aiR is slightly cool to the touch!~ wats sent me hoMe and i must say i aM happieR witH the state of his wiNdscreeN (not cos he had it cleaNed) but he'd driven anotheR car! (lols!) laZzy piggOs! lols!!

reachINg at the front of my door around 5-15 only to fiNd my caR driVeN out, i hope no ONe's hoMe,well at least tHe people who aRe cONCerNed what tiMe i shud B back and so oN. i went in, opeNed The dooR to fInd no one 's hoMe! well not in the liviNg roOm that is. signs of relieF. lets out a reasonable *pHew* cliMbed upstaiRs, eR well not LITERALLY alone at hoMe exactly, sis is engroSseD eYes aFfiXed to pc sCreeN she hardly acknowledge my pReseNce nextto heR till she hears me breathiNg i supPosE (haha) the vital people arent around la and i aM relieVed tHe 2nd tiMe lols

experince aN *excruciatiNg paiN* around 6! arGhH! i thought it was just a tuMmy discomfort,(due to earLY luNCh or IrreGulaR makan sche) but later on the nastiness uncoils and burNs and boils and its wanting To coME OUT tHAT IS!!!! several visits to the loo. then pHEW! 3rd sigh of RELIEF! lols! the pain remains, but much of its uncoiling and struggling has stopped, only to leave me weak- exhausted pale and motionless sprawled on bed. with a tipsy headache and subsequently a hurtful banging within my skull, throbbing pains near the temples and i curled up tighter inmy sheets,determine to will away that pain just by closing my eyes tightly and taking in fast breaths to take my mind off thiNKing of the pain, then slowly to smaller intakes of breath as it slowly goes away. was about to drift off sleeping wHen i felt anotHer stabbing pain iN my loweR tuMMy! ijust have to waLk this tiMe. all curled up in bed is not workINg and i need something to ease the *celaka-ed* paiN- oh d-ARN! walked dowN hunching old woman-style only to fiNd the medicine aint around in the drawers . oh d-ARN 2nd tiME! theN tHESE pplpulaK waNna go makaN seaFOOD in klANG! oh darN- 3rdtiMe. tuMMY ACHE + seafood = ?? idunNola. but fortunately while rummaging the contents of stuFfs iN sis's rooM, foUnd a sth that looks like the ubiquitous packaging of medicine! fOUND it! it was like haLLelujaH of some sort! okie not so ExxageratiNG! but pHeW! the 4tH tiMe! !!

feels slightly better ater the pill, but remnants of throbbIng headache still remains, subsequently feeling like spinning into Drowsy Land or sth. couldnt keep my head up at all times throughout the whole journey to klaNg! wheN we reach the destination, i guess due to the *discharge* and i needed sth to * replenisH* it so i began eating.. normally! feeling hungry takes my mind off that silly headache and yea seafood did MAKE ME feel better afteR al!! :) reaChed hoMe arOund 8-40 pM, and i aM spinning my way BacK to bed... zzz nites peeps!

slow fRiDay! pc-occupied alldaY!

incRedibly relaxiNg day, startiNg oFf by wakiNg up at aN astonishing 10aM! not very like Me nowaDays,haD not beeN sleeping foR alteRnate days thIs weEk! so insteaD of feeliNg refresHed froM sufficient ZZZz i acquired a doINks headache! eRRRrrrr wanna cekik that headache foR good! maKe me a coUCh potato for todAy( and hoW i hate tht feeliNg!) zzz head waning and waxing

nothIng reAlly prOduCtiVe till 1pM wHen a documentaRy caught mY atteNtioN. discovery channel: sth that has oways piqued my interest ! unlike the usual informative way of conveying awareness to viewers about the environment/nature/surrounding/human/animal behaviour, this one is documented as a researCh by a group of marine biologists oN the alarming nuMbers of dolphiN suicides@murdeRs (as presuMEd)

this group of researches are based at two main locations: foRay Mirth in Scotland and Virginia Beach in i-forgotten-where.( eR..? ) the documentary starts oFf witH findings of dolphin carcasses in Virginia Beach and the number of carcasses increased to an alarming rate of 16 deaths to count. the extraordinary part of it is having to find no serious sign of injury froM the exterior appearance of the dolphin. they'd often appeaR to loOk like any otheR healthy young dolphin,not a scratch,no bruises,no cuts,no signs of predatorial attacks or boat collision of anysort.

onlytill they did a postmortem on the babydolphins,they were shocked (& MoRtiFiEd) to find internal haemmoraging,focal bruises on the skin below the blubber, several serious organ injuries (like a BROKEN luNG?) sOBS!! and badly shattered ribcage( how grosteque moRe can this be?!soBs agaiN!)

so what/who can be hurting and killing these young dolphins so cruelly,so inhuman?? midway through the show,dad was getting to the door to leave for offiCe wheN he notiCed my appeaRiNg to be so anGuisHed, emotional and on verge of breakinginto teaRs kinda expressioN, reacting to mY kesiaN expressioN,he put on a comical one and asked.. *why loOk so like that * like wanna cry ledi. it was tHen i said. "those ickle' dolphins died very painfully, in a verykesian kinda way"

he carried his bag to the door aNd playfully poke at the kesian-ness and jokiNgly say, "die owedy buy a New oNe- lo".!(!!!) celaka sunggUh! (Wats foRbid!) teruKla- i knew he meant it in a humourly way,but i can't really help it teaRs start plopping uncontrollably! aIh!! {that emotion! so overwhelmiNg! :( }

sniFf snIff it turned out (even more shockinGly so) that these infant dolphins aRe BRUTALLY thRASHED anD THROWN into the air by theIr verY own species (possiblytheir very own herd, not to exclude their parents! ).. why.... arent dolphins mammals? arent they loving warM cute animals? :) well they seEmed so loVeable, so intelligent( sonar abilities and sucH) endeariNg qualities whIch maKe thEm as dolpHiN as theY caN be (thus sO loVeaBle by old and young alike!) why the sudden brutality, agressiveness and cruelty!?

*saDz* well lookiNg at the mammals in context, huMans aRe mammals too,yet they kill their own young,why shudnt the dolphins? logical explaination, but... so kesiaN la. now talkiNg abt it does briNg a misty veil in my eyes,about to teaR ledi but swallowed it back *gulps

oNe hour documentary suMOre!, with pg-rated gory extreme graphical visuals enclosed! eUwws all that blood, the broken bones, the damaged lung, the intense bruising, all details and graphics whicH sends out the description for brutal killing! and murdEr as being intentional!?! what aRe on THeSe dolphins' minds!?! their very own kind,and killing their own calf,dolphin-lings,!aH!! whats theiR motIVe for sucH brutality?? this haS beeN on my miNd the whOle nooN! thus takiNg my mInd oFf woRk for tHe day.!! enouGh ponderiNg and saDz saDz thoughts foR the mo! :)

haD a brIef luNch at hoMe b4 departinG to sEnd sis to tuitioN class at 2-15 pm :) stopped by at projet's @ dj to get something tomuNch oN! noe myself perfectly well i need sth to munch or cheW while attempting to get comfortable to woRk! duMpliNg for bfast REMINDS me i haventgotten anythINg foR prOM! (but oso reminded oF the similaritiEs of my physique as i looKed at the shaPe of the duMpliNg) lols! maDe Me lose my moOd anyhoW, but havent any mood fr daY ONE so no mood to lose! :P

had diNNeR at the usual ard-7pm and bolted upstairs to turn on the pc:) does some rearranging in My pc,sort some files, get stuff organised,straighten and attempted to start on woRk but remeMbered i aM goiN yuMchA wiF law and deBb! apparently kWooi is suPPosedly (or promisingly) to join us but He was still on his way back froM PP,in sHaH alAM, at 10 45 pM~while we WeRe owedy in bananaleAf!

deBbs got MAd cos she has to wait like 40 MINS in centrepoint aloNe! (she has Good reasons to do so,cos so would i)but when i got into the car 10 pm pronto! just start hammeriNg at laUrIE foR beiNg late, and MUST remeMber to BE mORE difficult on hIM nextime! (cos he says i am AN easy)! ! aRGHHHH! does being easy make u aN easy target to BE taKeN advanTaGe oF? REALLY must ttrY to BE MORE DIIFICULT LIAOS! haha!

wats on the otHeR hanD mustbe OWEDY snoozing wHen we reaCh centrepoint! :) sleepypIggo! its a lil odd goin odd witH em cos i seemed closer and more comfy with laurie alone (witH his gf o not) butthis all the moRe makes me more conscious of what i say to hiM. mustnt seem toocomfortable or it wiill seem inappropriate. atleast iam aware of this but debbs is this gal i have known for some period of tiMe but still remaiN a mystery to me! (jwey! i agRee wiF u!) lols.

got baCk at 11.25 sharp! deBbs got a lil comfy 10 mins b4 we left as she was engaging in conversations and considerinG the tiMe she spent on phone just now,it was morethan the amountof tiMe she spoke with us.(how ironic huh: SO near YET so FAR!) guess she has her own reason to feel a lil passive or maybe pissed??! maybe its just deBB, pooR laUrIE! eKeekees!

haha! got hOme and feeliNg freNzied so fisH outthe caMera and start snapPInG! (duno whats ggotten into my head this tIME! :P) but whateveR it is , i dON wanna get into the miNd of a BOTTLENose dolphiN, cos i cant stand another sightof a cut-up organ revealiNg bloody body of a babydolphiN. - theRe i go agaiN. --soBs-

oNe of the piCs i toOk when i was feeliNg wacky ((???)

fiNaLLy its oVeR!

diN get to zzz till arounD 2aM! was on the pHone and chattIng witH my sis! sisteRs are weiRd sumtImeS,
theRe weRe tImes when we cant stand the presEnce of each oTheR, but thEre weRe also tiMes we couldnt liVe w/out each otHeR.
speNt the whOle nite lastnIte crackiNg silly jOkes, non-intentional ones involving woRds like *no balls* gaWd haha!

speNd tHe wHole morNinG up tryiNg to coMplete that darN model oF mIne! oNLy fiNisHeD tWO! arGHH and maNifEsto not cOmplete yet!daNgz indeed, anD haS 2 b iN caFeteRia at 12nooN sharP foR pre-intro foR prOM! scheduled to reaCh by noon sharp as requested but foresee am nOT gOIN to make it ON tIME!mornINg owedy cut short just by tryiNg to coMplete those models (yet theY looKed like craP! AWRgHh) just briNg the models alONg laa! migHt see lect lateR oN!

got to col lateR thaN expecteD! (like 12 15 i guess) reMeMbeR receiviNg call froM jwey askiNg foR my locatioNs! lOOk ridIcuLoUsly siLLy, nerVous and all veRY unruLy witH my not-been-trimmed-since-aug-windblown haiR, hand holdinG paperbag, busy, nonchalant and oblivious to it all till i reach the liFt! daNg yet for aNotheR tiMe!so sLOw!wanna take the staIrs but aM so feeliNg flImsy i chaNged my miNd, and within secs *tiNg*,got into lift ,3rd flooR! (crOsses fINgeRs i aM notthe oNly oNe lat3**)

as i have said, was nOnchalant abt my appeaRanCe wheN i suddenLY thoUGht , gee! i was here foR a ReasON! and May ( one of the noMineEs was holdiNg a haNdycaM in Her haNd, awRGHHHhhh, looKiNg eVerywHeRe for a PaPeRbaG,but aLas!) did i comb my hair, straightened my skirt and was my halter looking in plaCe?! feelINg conscious@parAnoid out of a sudDeN! (which i shudnt be, cos jwey was sorta giving me an assuriNg look, which he oways does!) but its cute,cos he noes thats what i Need! :)

oVEraLL perFOrMaNce went noT as Well as it HAD yesterDAy at the HALL! i favoR jason's and Olivia's perfoRmaNe particularLy, for they hV so MucH eFfort put inTO,only tO be left dissApoiNteD witH the soUnds systeM marriNg theiR almost-perfect perforManCe as coMpaRed to the day befORE! and that NOISE in the cafeteria diN help eitHeR (and my phobia for crowds) ouRs wenT well tOo(me and jwey the 5th couple to be introduced), or so we've coNviNced eacH otHeR :P ( though i aM still terrified about speaking in front of a cafeteria filled with students, worsT witH tHe year3 enginnering students in front, gerard and gang!) the fisrt couple did better the day before too! (me tiNks its the echo in the hall)

botH clive and may aRe prettyshy and inward ppl, till this veryday,though i;d rather quite develope a liking to may,cos she seems so shy quiet and reserved yet so demure and sweet and... so... i dunno theres sense of purity and innocence about her, wHicH maKes heR so.. likeaBle?! :)

haha! hayleY is the crOWd's fav! as she's suCh a sWeetlookINg thinGY! ;) while chai, on the otHeR hand has aN absolutely endearinG quality, witH his coyness and sometimes-astonishing-expressions! u would thINk theY maKe a weird looKIng couple butthey botH sHaRe a certain aiR of similarity,which i yetto find out (!) lols!

the 6tH and LAST couple,lou yeH and tHe otHeR guy did well too, with unintentional spill of forgottenlyrics which caused an uproar amOnG the chinese students in the cafeteria! we had a good laugh, a fuN tIme and great experIeNce! i was not very concerNed witH the votINgs, but aM ratHeR worRied about tHe way i preSentEd myselF that day, was it due to that, that subconsciously i am conscious about the votiNgs as well? daNg! haha! i dunno whats gotten into me that day but i bolted right back home afteR thE intrO, was so loNgiNg foR a sHowER, ( as if to metaphoRiCallY waSh all that residue of feaR that cluNg onto me all noON!) and just did GET to say a briEf "bye" to jwey! :( aWww (lols)!

and yea! fiNally its REALLY oveR, the most dreaded moment has inDeed passed and def been theRe doNe that, but i cant help recalling back what i said! was i stutteriNg?my posture?was it proper?appropriate?lop sided?too casual?too rIGid? haH! its pHYSICALLY reallY oVER, but yet aM still thINKIng abt it! aRGHhhH! yiKEYS! yet the thrill still throbs withiN me, wEre thEy listeniNg!? to conclude it all, i WAS REALLY so the conscious,haha! never knew i had that part of Me till toDay! i got over the fright a lil and hope i will be good by next friday (seriousLY crosSed fINGERS!_)

was suPPosEd to Meet unCle today foR a "tutorial" of some sort but he was attendiNg a meetiNg,i waitedfor his call froM 2 pM to 5 pM then i cant stand waiting i gave hiM a call only to fInD hiM extendIng the meetiNg to satuRday morNing!! noNetHeless ,afteR my recoVEry froM the earlieR *excitement*, jwey callEd to cheCk if i aM *settLed doWn* ;) how incrediblythoughtful?! lols!

a toucHiNg stoRy whIcH has aN amUsiNg toUch to it! :)

found this on frenster bulletin, simple story,nice characters ,cute plot (esp the 'ickle fiNgeR parts) happily ever -after, what more can u ask! :) read on and enjoy! :)

Long time ago.. there was a princess who lived inthe palace.. she was a very beautiful and wiseprincess.. many prince has come to ask for herhand.. but all of the princes was rejected.. Finally,she decided to get married.. many competitionwasheld to choose her husband.. finally, only 5 princewas left.. she thought of a plan.. she'll hide herhand and stick out a finger.. each of the prince getto guess which finger it was.. The first prince showher his thumb.. the second prince show her his2ndfinger.. the third prince show her his index fingerand was slap by the princess.. the fourth princeshow her his marriage finger.. finally.. the lastprince show her his last finger. The princesslookedat the 5th prince and took out her hidden hand..theprincess also pointed out her last finger.. shehooked it with him and they got married.. theywerevery very happy together until one day..the princehad to go to war.. the princess was sad andworried.. so the prince hook fingers with her sayingthat he will come back alive for her.. Days pastby,and soon,1 year has past..the prince have notreturned..rumours was spreading everywhere thatthe prince had died..so, many other prince cametoask for her hand to remarry..reluctant,she continuewaiting for the prince..years past by and she knewshe had to marry again.. She decided to do thesame thing..she stick out her last finger infront ofthe princes..but none of them know what shemeant..they thought she wanted a ring on her lastfinger..so,she marry none of them.. One day,abeggar wearing a hat came and wanted to ask forthe princess hand..at first,the soldiers stoppedhim..but,the princess thought that everybody had achance..so,she let him in..the princess did thesame thing,and to her surprise,the beggar stickhis last finger and hook it on hers.. Later,the beggartook out his hat..looking at him,the princess foundout that he was her lost husband..she huggedhim.. and they were together again happily..dayspast... One night,the prince woke up and walk outof his bed..disturbed by the prince..the princesswoke up too.. she followed him..but after hewalkedout of the gate.. he disappeared.. the princess wassad.. Later,she found out that the prince had diedwhen he was on his way back from the war..but,inorder to honour his promise..he came back as aghost.. 7month is the ghost festival..so,7X7=49..hecould only be with her for 49 days and ltr,he wouldvanshed forever.. Finally,the princess found theprince body..she lied beside him,hook her fingerwith his and drank poison..so,that is how it ends..Now ,u know how the last finger was said to bemade as promises..pls let this story flow on..

sUnDaY : laZy waY cRazy dAy!

still halfway up my dreaMs and oWays the highly anticipated episodes theN BOOM!..
some MorNiNg caLL la lols! bFast oN suNday morNiNg.. ehe.dOn feel Much like it actually but everyone will starve if I don get my lazybUmpkiNs outta bed soon!

being the eldest has much of its cons, FIRSTly, i doN get to chOOSe who i waNna have bReakfast wiTh, Second: THEY don oNLY get tO Choose ME to HAVE breaKFast wiTH, i Gotta HEar tHEM all whiNy and coMplaININg whatnot they having for bFast oR swhaTsoeVer!

no peAce settlIng foR a place to eat cos tHeRe are FOUR different indiViduals havINg theIr veRY OWN idea oF aN IDEAL BREAKFAST! aRGHHHHhh,ThirDLY, noT ONLy i goTta hEaR the whINies i gOTta go stop thEM or i'll go InsaNe and prOb joIN tHeM whInINg abOut theM! not-a-Very-good-start for sUndaY morNIng, well not so TOO for preV weEks, but tHis is one oF the InsaNe-est :P:P

fInallY settLed fOR wOngKOk iN ss2, not a Good chOiCe, bRo suLKiNg and (when He doEs) u see a Variety of eXpRessIOn u SO wanna captUre oN canvas or Sth.. (but i M awEfuL iN portraits,lols) bro SulKiNg is daily occurence, when his displeased, agitated proVoked annoyed : eGO as hUge as tHe giaNt Who liVes-in-the-BeaNstalK.. FEE fi FO fum.. watever... his hands work up some magic too, small and tiny as he seemed, his abilities seem to range froM aBle to KILL u aliVe wiTH his DaggeRed stareS (i got iMMuned to that one) to oVertUrNIng the taBle and noticing aN unMistakABle clouD of steaM seeePiNg froM his Very scaLp,thats enjoyable to watch: my sisters and me agree, cRuelly admittingly so. spenDiNg an Hr for bFast, sEnt sis HoMe to fetcH her tuitiOn *suPpLIes*, leaViNg pHeNgZeRs and May resumIng to thEiR freNch tOAsts, ReaChed hOme to Find a VERY-disSaProVinG loOk frOm dad. sigh

foUnd that as ReasOn to leAve hse actualLY!:) PheNgZeRs and m3 went to aMcoRp to do a lil shoppINg! to get my Hp credits,first and mostforemost oBjective of this getaway.left at 1:30 scheduled to leaVe prOmptly at 2:15! ( to picK sis froM ss2's Yee's) sOme driVer of THe day!bUmpEd into Ex wHilE rushIng, he haS silly LooKIng haIR and that MaKes me woNdeR agaiN and AgaIN,what DID i fInd sO aTTraCtIve in HIm i TOok like God,oH gEe OveR a YEAR to get OVER hiM!

sMaCksfOreheaD the tears that i pour, the strings that tugged at my heart, the pieces that were never found,not till this very day! AH! the pain that i felt! GOD it feels great! pain is good cos its the painfullest pain and all iCkle pains aFteR that felt nO moRe thaN an ant-bite(or More likely NIBble in thiS case) well, it has Not made me less human, but to thInk of it in a Way it had maDe u feEl eXactly how u Are suppOSed to afteR a heartbreaK, u pIck urselF up froM the duMps and u clIMb and walk aGaIn, lIfe Goes on... well at least a siMilaR scenario eveR to repeat its histoRy agaiN, u'll be betteR oFf tackLing the pRoB, less tears , paiN depRessioN and all.

arRiVed HomE appRox alMost 3pM and all tHEse ppl wEre iN thekitCheN carryINg what seemed like this GLASS boX that LookeD terrIblY weiGhty cos tHeRe weRe about 4 MeN carryiNg it froM all 4 siDes, anguisHed loOks and all! pooR fisHy have ta swIm around halF taNk foR 10days!(due to leakage that occured midway oF the aquariuM) this NeW taNk is foR hIM and its a WelldeseRved oNe, thoUgh he hadnt beEn really behaVINg well lately! swiMMinG angrily and tHrasHIng furiously, causing some hearts to plunder and flutteR ( esp Mine!)

it scAreS me to see Mr aRoWanA act liKe that thoUGh he aint exactly the kiNda fISh u could pet sTroKe oR cuddle, but due to that particular gruMpiness(facial expression and all,not that HE can help it: and yea note the irony) he'd earNed a Very speciaL plaCe in My VeRy heart, and it pains me to see hIm tHrashIng causInG his beautiful scales falling onto the bed of the tank :(

thIs ReallY reMinds Me of aN iNcideNt whicH tOOk plaCe yeaRs ago, wheN i was baRely 12,or even 10 when the 1st arOwaNa we had ( a silver one) diEd of poisOnIng. All i'd ReMeMbeRed frOm it waS cryiNg the entiRe nite refusinG to let him *die*. the emotion u get when u see a pet fisH Die...whiCh u;d get accustOmed to foR all those YEars, siNce u wEre a toDdleR , it just paiNs me.

Mr Silver ( thats what i will like to call hIM, thOugh Silverfish will sound better oFf more exclusive, but i;d prefer the traditional formeR) is like a family memBer to ME! waS fliPping through some old albums wheN i foUnd most of the piccies of ME weRe taKeN witH Mr.SilveR andMY pacifieR (lols) oNe of the closest kiNs in my familY hoMe wHeRe i could neitheR fiNd comfoRt wHeN i cry,not a welcomiNg hug wheN i m feelIng frus( teethINg, whinINg, bawLInG) but i fInd joy watchiNg hiM swimMiNg swIMMINg swiMMIng!:) it never boRed me to see the fish swimming to and fro right to left in that smalleR taNk but ratHEr aN amusiNg pastIme! notHIng really productiVe. life as a baby(sinCe i aM strategically locateD just beside the taNk, sitting contently iN the baby chaiR, pacifieR equipped!

so Now Mr .OraNge has a New home, and hope he;s happy iN it; for the past feW moNths had been tormentoUs foR hiM, if Not foR us. he'd been infected with fUngal growtH or sth which is sth like tht dun recall the proper terM foR it but it hadnt changed in the past few monThs and its odd seeiNg his glorious orange self soaked in different coloured liquids everyweek.

the removal hadnt been permanent and at a time it gOt so BAD white threadlike worMies start shedding out of His skiN eUwyUckSiEsss :(:( till he have ta get soaKed in coloured liquids in months to come andthis has maDe him slightly agitated, foR imagIne seeiNg the saMe colOUR foR a Whole weeK and SeeiNg anoTheR foR yet anOtHeR weEk! colouR detectinG abilitieS gOne foR sUre if iT haD beeN me! :P lIfe had BeEN hazy and BluRRy for ThiS pet fiSh oF mINe .. so hoPes he;s happY now! happY:)-as-in-go-lucky-like-doRy_!

Mr.oRaNge heRe soaKed in greEN gOo-ed taNk. gUess he doesnt lOok toO happy, does he?

hello?

hello is not working ..must be the firewall behind my pc thats blocking sumthing.
its almost dinnertime now, i wonder saVoury vegee is ready owedies o not!
someone pls kill my appetite before i start munching on the house! :P wiNks!

faMiliaR whIff of saVouRy vege. yuM

waking up at 11 am oN a noRmal college day does feel oddish, approximately when the clock strikes half past niNe, i wOke up with a jolt!! daNg i aM late foR clasSS!!!! took me a while to realise its wednesday.......fell back to slumberland zzz,have aN incredibLy sleepyhead.
Meant to join parents foR morniNg walk but the present cocooned state is enough to make me forget about myintentions of losing that spare babyfat. zzZz i aM one of those who can sleep with my eyes half close with thoughts swimming in my mind, smiling sleepily halfway through my daydreaMs. justtheN when i was goiN to do sth exciting in my dreaM, the sound of someone opening the door woke me up with a jolt! (again!) *muMbles to sis* *whattime isWit noww....*bythe time the earlydebut appearance of the noon sun has shone right onto the foot of my bed, leaving a warm presence to it, as if someone had sat theRe the whole time,watching me.
brewing cooking stewing in the kitchen which is a long way froM wheRe i am sitting now is a very delightful sMell, the smell of savoury lettuce leaves( orf some sort, i am sure it has a name..but bother!) and canned pork! hOme cooKed, tantalising, appettite whetting, yuMs! i had lunCh at hoMe, just after dropping bratty bro and sweetsis at cHs, and appetiser befoRe that. i now have a super-ability of able to stomache various foods in one meal. maYbe a 2nd or 3rd tuMMy is growiNg withiN me. wheRe i 'd get my appetite froM i woNder, it gets huGe-r wheN stH savoury's cookiNg at hoMe ( like now!) darN!having second thoughts of goiN proM now.... cant imagine turNiNg up looking like a duMpling tiEd up in riBbons (yiKey*)
a guy just turned up at my house this afternoon, he's the son of the carpenter who woRks for My uncle (who's a interior designer) who, at the same time made the furnitures in ur home.( inoe this is confusing!) coincidentally, i worked for my uncle before and i met this girl who'd happened to work for my uncle too and yea she's interior designer and her fatheR is the carpenter i ve talkiNg about, and there the guy is, hammering away at the shelves ,her very own brother. dunno how small the world can be!:) and we all have sth in common, thats in the design field that is. Currently this interior fren of mine (lets call her S) is helping my eldest aunt with re-designing her condominium home in BU! lols. thats how the world goes around i guess everything is related to one anotheR!!

HaPpy biRtHday to You Dee!!!!

taKeN in the bus oN the wAy to MaLaCca for a Field trip! happY noeiNg u dee foR all thesE yRs! :) tHaNks foR beiNg a gr8 freN! ( a sweet one and a caring one and an understanding one too! )

:: MusiNg oF Me ::

1:59 am
20th february 2005

my thoughts weRe drawN back to the earlier hours of today's long hustling bustling day.
woke up as usual weary eyed,*blInks* fuMblIng for hp, theN only realising its on the table
day scheduled to reach equine by at least 12,the latest
long journey accompanied by mum;s naggings: sth u cant help shutting out from,yet cant help actually reconsidering what she'd actually said was rite,and when its true it just hits u rite in ur tummy, baNg!! pang of guilt! indicated by sinking lower into the seat(its already the backest row,note the distance*) and trying my very best to avert my eyes from the passenger mirror to avoid eye contact!
reaching the destination only to find out it isnt the usual site, no expensive exclusive white,clean tensile structure peeking from the hill but rather a permanent structure in the towncentre of (eQuine parK) albeit with the same translucency of glass steel and same quality of clean linear design( yet i aM delighted*) a separate tent with mist fans installed is seen on the left, whereby on the right the translucence is balanced with several guards ushering guests to respective parking bays and a troupe of lion dancers(*is that the rite term?*) cant help but think the lions despite their joB to glorify the annual event, actually overshadows the exclusitivity of the open house, organised by none other than Dato' PatrIck Teo(*if am NOt mistakeN*) chairperson of equiNe parK. the entrance itself is skirted by this troupe of * lions* as they ogle u hungrily, i mean. who hasnt tell theM that it is ACTUALLY RUDE,not to mention rather PERVERSE to starE? lols. ohyea. i have forgotten they are here to glorify the event. but pls keep that 10 odd pair of eyes staRIng elsewhere when u are trying to enter the pavillion(or so i assume)