psd-ed cRazy!!

gRaNny sMitH cRaze!!! muaKsSs aPplegReeN, like it on VW!! :)

bLocKiNg my seNseS

montHly issue came today,
this is the time of the month i get miserable but
fortunately with the amount of worK occupying my time leaving no rooM to thInk of pain
is helping

it starts to feel when i stopPed beiNg busy
and stops feeling when i was chattiNg up witH a fren ysternite

been replaying the enya *fake albuM* - Sumiregusa for a bout a few tiMes now,only stops to pause when supervisor indicating wanting a woRd with me..... so distractiNg huh

it skiPs at traCk no.6 - Never whiCh is my fav. tracK so faR so am wantiNg to get it changed at nightmaRket possiBLy toDay. reason i said so FAR is i was crazing about Wild Violet when i heaRd it in enya.com abt a month ago but am starting to like Suddenly Yours (in Now Playing box)

find it quite too mellow in the beginning but the melody starts getting easy to get accustomed to after the 3rd play. its touchiNgly soft, a lil melancholic, but also swEet. could taste it on my tongue, like a painkiller slowly taking its effect - doink

coming home smelling like tobacco, as i haVe since 3 weeks ago...
eUuwwsss.................
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currently listening to :: ewan mcgregor and nicole kidman's *come what may*
couldnt believe this was the same guy who appeared in star wars: episode 3 lately

he's actually got a pretty good siNging voice, unlike the kayu-ness in his tone in revenge of the sith, **tee hee*

and not to mention he was clean-er shaven in moulin rouge

revenge of the sith he look like a jedi master---only
ah pek style..... teehee

have been busy at work doing the renderings,
and one took about 3 hours which stalled me till about 7 pm,bwEks

i am INSTALLING 3d studio max into my pc once i get hold of the cd,hmmphs!!

at the moment i have to make do with what i have and try presenting it in the most presentable manner i could

goiN back to my comfY box of fluFfs, nites

---xoxoxoxoxo------

tiReds

i recalled teling someone i was crying while singing when i broke it off with my ex,but couldnt remember which song was it i was singing. well today i remembered,when i was hearing a soNg similar to that one

fUnny how certain songs bring out the emotion that weRe oNce felt , even it occuRed years ago where u are most likely to have forgotten it lIke foRgettiNg a simple thing like what u want to say! :) and how vividly it was pictured, from the saltiness of the tears to the pufFiness of ur eyes and the soUnd of raiN that pOured and beated against the window on a nite, clock reads 9 -30 pm. and a study light was the only tHing that lit the dark interiors of tHe roOm, while i was trying to keep myself from crying only to let out soft sobs accompanying the night rain......

in case u are wondering, it was a sonG by jessica.simpsons :: it all sounds so silly and phony now. the song don mean a thiNg to me now, not the way i use to feel towards the song or the person once upon a time ago. being able to relate to that same feeling : denial,depRessed,cold,neglected doesn't make me the same person i was 4 years ago. i aM merely able to feel/recall it in a new identity,lOoking at it liKe i was lOokiNg at tHe other person. and it does make me smile thinking abt it now despite the bittertears that i cried allover it then. i smiled and laughed at the silly naive little girl who didn't know how to let go off the things that arent wortH keeping. memories that made u who u weRe once_upon_a_time,and the old u who made u who u are today......why.. thats not so bad i guess. all a part of the learning journey.

i still like the song (though memories are stuck fast permanent)
but i guess i like it still because i have faith in how i feel
and i trust i could find that special someone someday,if nottoday or tomorrow :P

and i believe in good things and bad that happen for a reason, regardless of how stuBborn/or a pessimist u aRe at that moment of occurence.

i guess time can only tell ......

*_anotHeR hectiC day_*

got quicktime ledies!!! i aM so hapPPPPy! (thanks paul!)

all the more to worK on, and loads more waiting to be done. left oFfice apProx 6 sth,calling home to only be told that dad's out for weddingdinner, bro at freN's bbq leaviNg me and 2 sis to fend for ouRselves for dinner.

went to one.u after given the botH much time deciding while waiting foR me to comeback foR jam near sg buloh exit is nastily heavy appRox 6. i had to skip junction by junction to find one where there are less congestion so i could cut right against the traffic onto the left side of the road. touChed down @home approx 7,changed into freshclothies and off we go again. anotheR jam while getting into one-u. i once used to dread driving then i got to love it cos it gets me to places w/out counting on parents and at times like this its taxing, and here is my 17-year_old sis talking about driving sitting next to me. -_-" blimeys

heaved on a lasagna(which i share with meng, glad i did!) but regretted i didnt take sth lighter. feel like a bloated phyton slithering all over the floors of one.u witH my sis pHengs beiNg indecisive of wHere to go next. dangz

thiNk we went a lil far into the old wing then i voiced making a u turn cos car is parked in the new wing. meant to go foR a drink at woNgkok but were greeted and told the kitchen was closing. dangs for phengs, her facial expression really tells it all. was making fun of the waitress who mumbled like a chuffing train.. *%^*#$@)*^..... sorry* actually we *kinda heard* "our kitchen is closing now,sorry" but she chuffed her way through telling us-lah, like wanting us to leave in a chuff oso *bweks waitress* as a very pissed phengzers pulls her trademark expression. ((haha))

decided to leave for home siNce we have noNe other plans,time reads 10pm anyway. reached home finding ourselves the earliest hoMe! installed illustrator 10 onto pc, did a lil rendering and now here i m! :) yawnsss

well --------------------------------

atleast i don have to work tomolos!!!

teehee

_vw rendering w/out quicktime_ disH*!

:+ 2nd june 2005+ :
started on my vw rendering this mornIng,have yet to finalise my design, still trying different options foR showcases display.

went out lunch today foR fiRst tiMe with collegues 2day.droVe all the way to sg buloh town just to have mixed rice,and isnt cheap...... -_-"

.. tried rendering a few more to see the lighting effects,then *whaM* wanna export image only realise no quicktime to support that task,and the textures arent showing in thumbnails so i gotta apply ONE by one just to see how it lOoks like_dish. must remember to ask paul (my collegue) for quicktime liaos......

went to one.u today foR iDeas shoPping,called dee earlier 3 times and a txt but no reply. bro's been complainiNg about missIng notebOok foR 2 wEeks now and cant tahan hiM cOMplainIng witH my dad overheariNg. ends up spendiNg a whole chunk of the tiMe dinner-iNg at a newly-opened bbqplace_Bar BQ plaza inthe newphase, i have to tell u they have sth special there _hmms very nicely scruBbed shiny hotplate_ :P its actually a round shiny plate with the midDle slightly raised foR u to cOok the assortment of chicken_pork_beef meats (they forgotten te fish somehow) and on all around the sides is a narrow indented longkang filled with a lightchicken stock to boil the finely shredded cabbage(yums!),sliced carrots,(okays) and whole babycorn (euuws) lol. went hoMe appRox. 11 30 after collectiNg noteboOk (pHews*)...

....tired fr sittIng infront of warmchicken-stock-flavoredvapours constantly bubbling in ur face all nite..goOdnite doInks!!!

bakIng iN the mornIng rays

woke up at 7 am sharp,an insanely houR to Rise to get urself ontime to worK oN the fiRstday,but nonetheless thrilling,eHe, the anticipation

fuNny how i used to dread graduating cos i fear lOOking for a jOb,and probably findiNg none and even if i did, dread the saMe dead stagnant environment..... *yikeys*

toDay staRted pRetty well, worN my cardigan and halter(as prOmised, tee hee), had alightbreakfast, light incense on all the altars and received a lucky redpacket fr parents :P

and start off at a ridiculous 8 am!!!! thankfully reaches workplace by 8-17am and sorta waited till jessie (the receptionist open the dOOrs!) sittiNg in my caR (locked) sucking on a *chocful* waitinG waiting..till the sun rises la i suPpose. sun in sg buloh i dunno is exceptionally panas or wat-laH, but it felt like i waited all mORNING!

fiRst day but got *assignment* liao!!! given by mR chester hiMself ofcos!:P design a crystal shop with no paRticulaR concept/layout for a start!... theN lOuis (my senior-senior designer)came in and briefed me about dsx_a smaller scale of Diesel. well luckily i told louis i was given tHe crystal shop to prOpose oTheRwise i have to foLLow two projects at a tiMe, without even noeing i don have to

day cut shoRt when the pc men came in to send 2 (or was it 3) new pcs. i aM one of the lucky 2 (or was it 3) who gets to use the new pc btw! *smirks* ended up installiNg all the needed softwares and finisHing eveRything by about 5 then i left at 5-30! pHewS!

tomorrow -->>
won't be silly to wake up at 7
and won't leave home at 8
and won't reach office by 8-17 looking around for living soul to help me unlock the system ((haha))