heRe's to the End of Sadness and TorMent

before i got to GrandMa's toDay,
here's what i have been worKing on. ..asides from my incoMplete theMe with this wallpapeR in the staNdby....

i diNt include the mouRning expRessioN........ :(:(:(

soBs. *break into lil tearDrops

Candles Remind u that u ARe getting Older

on Sunday, March 12 2006, (thats yesterday) we celebrated 3 persons' birtHdays!
deaR Meng will be turNing 15 offIcially on this 28tH March but siNce heR birtHday in the *LunaR* calendar fell yesteRday we celebrated it together with dad and youNger sis's which fall on the 1st of April and 15th of March respectively.

Although the dates are quite faR from one anotheR we have celebrated it this way foR the past yeaRs. (mum lazy bake 3 individual cakes for all of *em)

somehow feels lucky my birtHday and pheNg's are apart by one moNth, teehee

we make very UN-similaR cancer sisters really.

i haven't had birtHday celebrations at home for so loNg now, eXcept for one in my Year1, and that itself wasnt a very pleasant experience. (due to some reasons)

we had a very elaborate steamBoat dinner yesterdAy complete with seafood, fish, meat, prawns, pacific clams and fresh scallops from *aussie! (and vege of cos, sth un-animal to munch on at least)! iN the middle of diNner, phengz suggested on opening a bottle of wine and boy she can drink! *guzzles guzzles guzzles like she would empty a bottle of Evian down her throat* "licks lips* *hmmMmyums*

Wacko Phengz in all her Mighty toMato-ness!

this vainpot couldnt care less if her eYes are squiNting when this picture was taken! hahaa! *cos she's drunK* and everythiNg on her face is really red except for heR yAlo looking nose, as opPosed to Rudolph the Red-Nosed ReindeeR. (u cant see it here cos Sony Ericsson takes pRecisely not what u wanna capture sometImes, bother!)

and theN later in the night, we had the infaMous -cutting-cake-session-. i was baffled if i shud light 15, 56 or 11 candles! hahaa! i lighted ONLY one in the end, just a number to represent the 3 of them! we had an awesoMe yuMmylicious Blackforest Cake whicH mum tooK the trOuble to baKe thhat very afternoOn beforehand.

chocolate shavings from dark cooking choccIe!

till the garnishing part (the finishing details), she realised she couldnt fine any chocolate shavings for the middle part of the cake! so she cleverly substitute them with..

Chocolate CHIPS!!

choc chIpS!! they are yUmmy noNetheless, melts in ur mouth, not on the cake!

the cHips maKe the cake looK a lil too spotty on the top view! ahhaa. dot dot dot. can play tic-tac-toe, lol. yuMMy nonetheLess,chip or choc. i sapu-ed the maraschino cherries this time(i used to hate them.. )

Me, Meng & May : i looK too Happy to waNna choMp the caKe whOle.. *sniGgers*

choc. shaVINGS On the WHOLE CAKE!!!!!!! wanna try making that nexttiMe!!!!!! so sinful...!

to cap off the very memoRable nite, me and Meng walked in the garDen for a bit to *complete* the birthday celebration. don't ask me why, i too think its odd to walk in the garden at a very late 11pm clad in my pyjas,and her in her new clothes! it was a nite with Bright mOon but no staRs so we head back into home and retired eaRly in bed as we weRe so exhausted.

i feel fat as i lay down trying not to think of food i taken earlier.

but i pigGed all the same, after sendiNg the last sms to teds.

zzz OInk zz

today's post will be title-less because there's nothiNg really speciFic i wanna talk about. i woKe up toDay havIng a suDden gatal-ness to wantiNg to do lots of tyPing.

as i couldnt fInd anythiNg in my assiGnmenT to tyPe yet, and tHere are no One in Msn that i can chat to at the tIme of the mornIng i resoRted to blOgging.

in a conversation not long ago with my dear cousin Bryan he mentiONed he doesnt wrIte his eMo-s on his blog anymore. i guess it's feeliNg like u have exposed too much of ur personal feelings for whomever who view it, at the same time showiNg the weaKer u, and NO MAN wants to be thought as a WIMP!

but i said to him " Its practically the only place i go to when i am down "

its there i am searching for someone (place) to shout out
its there regardless day or night
its there no matter what (and thankfully it hasnt gotten ears)
its there when i am awake alone and no one is quite awake to listen
its there the times when i wanna voice out but dont feel like any feedbacks!

hMm.

everythiNg is so great about bloGging really

'cept that to forget u r pouring ur emotions in a PUBLISHED blog for the wOrld to see maKes u no diffeRent from people who whIne about theiR problems openly. in fact its better gruMbling and bla-bla-ing when my sis's slowly drifting into sleep.

at least she will remember not even half of what i have said.

guess my rantings have a pretty lullaby-ic quality to it.

:S :S :S :S :S


anyway, here's what i had fOR breakFast ---->

its some-kind-of-a-lettuce + scrambled eggs + lightly sauteed chicken pieces + herbed butter gravy drizzled all over!

haha! its the yuMMilicios-est breakfast i have had this week,and though i must admit,the srambled eGgs arent cooKed as scraMbled as they shud look like. i guess non-stick pans never give u quite the same results chinese woks do!

*wrinkles nose*

*bLeeps*

had a thorough long class this noon starting at around 2.. (and was still sketching as the lecturers arrived_fashionably late)

have the silly habit to have gOne through research after research on design and form and taking a helluva long time to digest digest digest and get it out on my own terms in my proposed design.

feel like a cow thats feeding on greens with a malfunctioning cant-digest-cellulose gizzard*

arGhhs.

it just bugs me so much that i want the best i can produce with the allocated limited span of time but i spend it hrs on research leaving a wee few mins for the execution *sketching it all out of cos!* *sketch in scraggly waGgy wiGgly lines* huMMphhhs * but i still like!* so there! lol!

tutorial went alarmingly and surprisingly well for me, in fact my work got mentioned a few times i cant help but feel guilt creeping like smoke veils hungrily choking me from behind.

*i finished that in less than less than HALF AN HOUR kays!*

i COULD have done better than if i had shifted the extra 30mins from research to sketching for good then!

*though i must admit,i can sketch in a jiffY, Or even in a flash when i am paNicky!

DANGz!

tralalalalalala.

went home with a gleeful smile on my face

even the annoying heat is starting to feel nothing more than a warm caress on my bare shoulders as i walked out of the college entrance.

nothing feels better than having the sun smiling back at me :P:P

tra la la la la lal la!




gotta start on new stage after this,hmmph

the sooner i get past this the better i feel i tell myself with a wistful smiley.

yes it certainly does,
today was a great exaMple.

p/s: bumped in2 Garry after class today, thanks for the invitation Garry(if u are reading this), was thoughtful that u asked .. :)

:: one smIley for you! ::





::: and oNe huGgie wuGgie foR teDdy! for tht simple coMforting conversatioN afteR my shoRt exchange of sth with bro :::

as for now,
i shall sleep
in . - . peace.

gOodnite!

and who is that moron to have saved my template changes!
my web layout tuRned into a *tequila shot* design layout available at blogger's!
now i AM <---------------------------THIS----------------------------------------> frustrated to noe that i DONT Have any back up for my last change of my weBbie design! DARNEDEST!

(maybe there aRe back ups, but ainT the LATEST) AgRHHHHHHH!


i duNno who COULD have cHanged it apart from myself!!!!


i just hope i aint that moRon who Caused myself proBleMs to re-create the design layout all over agaINS!! DoInk!!

i miss my teddy so much!

i miss my teddy so much!

i miss my teddy so so so so much!

*roaRs*

missing teddy + lose my blog design = frustratEd!

how often do u wake up having a sudden craving to instant noodles for breakfast

well guess what..

thats what i HAD for breakfast toDay!!! lol

mum and dad left early for morning walk, and there's simply nothing that appeals to my tuMmy except instant noodles. so the funniest sight when u walk into me and bro thsi morning is both of us sitting at the coffee table slurping on our noodles.. (finally have sth in common heh//)

mum came back a short while, left her marketing supplies and chao-ed off again. a fren came, dropped off some fruits and she chao-ed as well. then shortly after that, bro got his shower,and we all chao-ed too, to fetch him to school! i feel like a part time driver now, seriously i do! but ironically i hardly fetch myself around, not to college unless im goiNg to the liBrary..

i feel a lot better toDay..much betteR than yestErday when the flutterbys butterflys keep fluttering in my tummy. its not hearing a word from teddy that woRries me so much! and so far away! its the distance that made me thInk the craziest things that might have happened to him! *darns*