gettiNg bLue-BlaCks eAsiLy

Natasha Bedingfield has released a moving and heartfelt track called
“I bruise easily” and sings that she wants to be “handled with care”.

As the lyrics suggest, all of us can bruise easily when we open ourselves up to a relationship. The trouble is, life is made up of relationships whether it be with family, friends, partners or children, they all make or break our world – and how
fragile that world seems at times!

Here at Connect, we see many people who have had their world broken or damaged and although most of the bruises they sustain are emotional ones that cannot be seen, they are, nevertheless, just as painful.

But there is hope. It is possible to heal and move on, to develop and change. Counselling can sometimes be a way of finding a way through life’s problems.

From the feedback we get from former clients – it can make an enormous difference. We may not be dealing with physical injuries but the pain and desperation is just as real. The following quote is used, by permission, from a client who actually describes her emotional hurts in a physical sense;

“After months of hard, intensive soul-searching where raw wounds were opened up even further, I can finally say that I am leaving you with only a few sticky plasters. The scars, I know, will remain, but the searing pain is now a manageable dull ache. Connect, like an antibiotic, has enabled me to heal.” _but antibiotic leaves a horrible aftertaste_danGz

If you have been bruised and want some help, call Connect on 01276 24210; we care for all kinds of Problems, for individuals, couples and families.

:< :< :< :< :< :< :,< :'{ ;.<

seriously maybe i shud drop them a line or sth.......

i hear it singing from ur heart and it hurts so much to noe its as painful for u as it is for me
thank u for sharing this beautiful song with me

_sad yet beautiful_like the sunset

hoping sun will rise tomorrow

______:: i bruise easily ::_______

My skin is like a map
of where my heart has been
And i cant hide the marks
its not a negative thing
So i let down my guard
drop my defences down by my clothes
i'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]
I bruise easily so be gentle when u handle me
There's a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Cant scratch the surface without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints on a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them all over this heart of mine too
But if i never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]

Anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal u

Anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave u

So be gentle...

[Chorus]

I bruise easily
I bruise easily ..

::

there's nothing that i do that makes them happy
or what i do that makes me happy they will aprrove of
and heck he asked me why it seemed i was oways against him
i was never oways agaiNst hiM!!
he was just never happy the way i am
never happy the way i look spoke act
never
and i shall never,
i will never forget his eyes
which my eyes pierced right out to drink into all its fieryness
without a feeling of guilt, or fear
but i feel the rims of my window blacken
as if darkness was claiming me,blurring my vision

as i make my way up
as my welled up emotions starting pounding on the walls
i noe i told myself i won let it out
but its starting to pound so hard i have to release them
release them of their suffocation
and mine
purging out the thick lumps that formed in my throat
i hurled them out hard
i forced out my pent up anger
feeling so broken makes me wanna break things
hurting still dead objects feels good

but i don want to
i stopped
but once i get reminded of what he says
i start the fuss all over again
water washed me clean
water washed my tears
water washed the filthiness of words that were thrown at me
water filled my stomache

i don need food
i don need anything

i just need to get the unstately looking me looking better
and i will go to work as i do everyday

i will be normal
i will be strong
i will be okay

i will

but now

i am not sure

bloggiNg is wHeRe i haVeN't beeN to for almost a moNth

aN encoUnter with teRmites...
thats a goOd one to start off the weEk
and from an almost-30day break from typing iin my blog

to start with the bugsy teRmites
paul, one of my collegue spotted one termitey last 2 weeks crawling on a sheet of A4 on his worktable
freaking out he called us on to show his remarkable find
its remarkable really..
as its my first time seeing a termitey (live,crawling)with my naked eyes
it has a whitish yellowish appearance making it the albino cousin of the regular ants
and.. whitish yellowish
tot it was closer of a kin to the maggots though
yikeys!
so..
just two days ago..
i walked into the office as it were any other regular day
i greeted jessie at the door, like any other regular day
but this isnt any regular day it isnt! sobs

i don see jacky holding a feather duster on a regular monday
or paul furiously banging the keyboard upside down
whats the spick and span aNd hustling and bustling
an early spring cleaning madness??
this peeps gone outta their heads?
this is no regular sleepy monday cos as i lean down to catch something that seemed glistening on the matt surface of my table
there lies a live teRmittey writhing pitifully on my desk, it must be a longfall from the ceiling boards or he'd wouldnt land on his back poor termitey
i let out a gasp and start juMping like a packet of burSting popcorns
i look like an absolute mad person
paul wasnt v helpful
he stood and laughed (muahahahas?) at me a whole good five mins
but helped me clean the desk as i recollect my composure
but just as i see another termitey i go mad all over again

and then it was ken;s turn to laugh at me
they tOok turns laughing at me
and sometimes they laughed at ME all at the same time
so thats a lot of noise that same day
me jumping and screaming andlaughing then almost crying
and them laughing at my jumpy antics
and my boss cracked up too
guess they r wondering how a city gurl could survive in rural area like sg buloh
lmao.
hhaa
i wonder too

and they just keep laughing at slightmovements
a slight brush
stamping my feet shaking off some imaginary crawling termiteys
and whole lot stampeding sound on the floors when the crawly sensation starts to feel a lil too real
basically they enjoyed the scene when they see this city gurl breaking into a dance when she feels an itch or crawly somewhere imaginarily

and then today i went in
more termiteys on tables till we have to shift the pcs out of the working studio
and a cat that felled a ceiling board near the pantry (darns)!!!

a place full of pest
and SuRpriSes!

...!!!!

just as i was checking the tables if there were dead(or alive termiteys)
a snooppy cheeky ken came from behind and gave me a soft bOo fr the baCk of my shoulder!
daRn! that really made me jumped
jumped the wits outta my skin
just whacked him for what seemed like a longtime but couldnt help it but burst into gigglesmyself
daRnedest things happened today but this is far by the worst
i cant help but think a large termitey gave me that fright as i was so engrossed watchiNg out for one. don want one to come landiNg on my hair when i wasnt lOoking
and mind.. they feed on woOd but they also bite
paul has a termitey bite, (which he got that same morniNg) its turned into aN ickle bruise by lunchtime wheN i checked it
and jacky had a termite landiNg on her hair leaving some termitey trail im sure whe wouldnt forget
and that horrible stoRy louis made up about one getting into ur hair
and by the rate of multiplication u will be soOn be hosting a colony of termiteys! (arGhhhhs!)

the exterminators coming in tomolos
and hope the milky ants are *deleted* for good
don want them walking all over above out heads and reducing the place to crumBs

crosses fingers (1,000,000 X)

i don wanna go to workplace the nextweek me turning the place upside down with my unbearable noise-making machine
think they will consider firing if they cant bear it
fancy a pinkedface lil monkey jumping and monkey_giggling all over the place

some pest that needs a pest exterminatoR
or a firm turned into a zoo?