aUg 31st! soMe inDepeNdence day...

i was beiNg crabby the whole nite
i was crimson from neck up,talking lots of cra(p) and pinching
(poor wats)
it was okay the first 15 mins after the last sip
but after that i start feeling the heat rose to my neck and slowly seeping into my OREDy rosy complexion
darnedest
was barely a full mug
and there i go bragging i had 3.. and a Quarter
lols
i start to notice how severe it was not untill
i paid a visit to the loo in(in hartamas's cristo)
trust me the washroom is miniscule for a place/crowd like that
i saw an octopus looking back at me in the reflection,
oh dangz
patting my face with water didnt help
in fact i think its gonna help it get worse
so i gave up
i walk back hobbling miserably on my heels
tipsy BUT miserable
i tot i was suppose to get tipsy high and i;ll be laughing my ass off
but not this time

i like lastyear's merdeka eve
although we were walking all over town
blistery toes and soles
but there were at least more than the 6 of us

time does feel like it flies
i recall what happened some 10 days ago from today's date
and it feels like it happened a month ago
woNder what makes it seemed like a century ago when my time with loved one
just ticks away with extraordinary speed
just a wink then the moment has to end

tiMe with family just remain at a standstill no matter how mucH tiMe i have with them
probably we have less conversations, thus the lack of comMunication, less glances, less expRessioN , and eventually less trust
but time standiNg still doesnt mean i could take time for granted and think it is actually standing still
it was actually never standing still
it was ever moving
at a steady pace
it was just me
me in my slower pace
i have to catch up somehow
or it will ever seem standing still for me
like things never are gonna change

when time does freeze it doesnt mean time wasnt wasted
the thIng about me assuming it never really moved was probably i was too reluctant and stubborn and strong headed to make it move in the first place
i cant do much with wasted time which i assumed was frozen time
but i can do a lot with time that is ahead of me
available for me to make changes for myself, people around me and my environment

i am just imagining life with no tomorrow
no more time
there's just not enough time

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